The meme lover in me made me do it.


April Showers, brings another random blog

To start off, it has actually been sunny here in South Florida. The showers are staying away for now. May be a good thing.  I’ve been putting this post off for weeks, maybe even months now.  I’m definitely keen to talk about casino gambling in more detail. I’m gonna throw in some Oprah in the mix, well, because it’s Oprah. The rest will be completely spontaneous, BUT completely needed.

Hope you enjoy, and leave a comment if any of this resonates with you!! Everyone has a story. And sometimes two stories can be completely different, I mean almost night and day, but still help the other person. I’m happy to share highlights of my story, and will love if it has even the slightest impact on you.

1) So there’s Oprah, and the list can go on about what you say about her: she’s the 1%, but she’s also phenomenal. This is “Think and Grow Rich” philosophy. This is The Secret. This is the law of attraction❤ 

I had a cousin debate a little with me over this post. He wrote, “I’m going to disagree. She may have visualized all she has today, but everyone does that. She busted her ass for decades. That’s why you don’t see 5 million Oprahs. There is no scenario where everyone can be wealthy in any monetary system.” 

While I understand his point of her working hard to get to where she is, I still had the book Think and Grow Rich  in my head. 

So my retort was, “I agree with you. With this segment of hers I just related it to the “Think and Grow Rich” book because I’m only on chapter 2, and already picking up the secret theme being defined as your failures being as important as your successes. They get you to that never give up mindset. Our system! That’s not something I’ll ever touch!” 

In summary, he was talking about hard work and the monetary system, and I was just relating to the message of law of attraction, and your failures being as important as a learning experience as your successes. Either way, this is a grand and superb Oprah clip. In any debate you have in your head, hopefully you are saying, law of attraction for the win!

2) A transition from a motivational Oprah speech on failure to gambling just seems appropriate? Gambling controversially and beautifully connects with the energy of law of attraction. Just not maybe the way you are thinking. Basically, in my expert opinion, gambling is a major loophole when it comes to the law of attraction. And the answer why? The first word that comes to mind is vibration. Vibrational match. Look at this way, you can have a person that enters the casino with a measly $10 and build it up to $65 in matter of minutes playing roulette. Here’s the catch, if there vibration is low or their vibration is in a state where they believe that when you gamble, the money just eludes you, guess what will happen next? The same person that was up $55 could to go to a new machine, have a lower vibration, or even absorb a lower vibration, and lose it all back in minutes as well. Then ultimately, they are not up anything. They just lost $10. Now, I’ve also seen people win $900, $2500, even $5000, in one sitting at the casino. These people have a high vibration, or just a  very strong thought manifestation of, “I don’t care if I’m gambling and it can be unpredictable or even reckless,”…”I’m a a winner,” they are saying. “Money comes to me now and easily,” they may also say. Now to wrap up this random bullet, let me tell you over the past few months, what I’ve done when I’ve gone to the casino to gamble. I usually only bring $40-60 dollars. Doesn’t mean I may not end up losing more, I just usually don’t bring more than that amount. That’s my comfort zone, so to speak, and  probably also the reason I don’t win! Lol! With my $40 or $60, or even $80 bucks I pay cards or I play roulette. Just recently, I put $40 in a roulette machine, and built it up to over $200 in about less than an hour. Here’s the kicker and the catch though, the casino draws you in, so you don’t quit. Instead of coming out a big $160 winner that night, I lost it all back. And then a deep sadness and dirtiness sets in.  The biggest thing to take from this, even when you do win, you are winning off of someone else’s lower vibration loss. Or like in my case, someone else’s only breaking even or losing small amounts mentality of “Gambling money just eludes me.” Sarah Prout, an expert on manifesting and law of attraction has an article about why gambling is NOT the means to manifest abundance, and she explains this all the best. I think it talks a lot about energy, present moment, and gratefulness in it. Regardless, she lives in Las Vegas, so she knows a thing or two about casinos. And she’s already a law of attraction guru. Here’s the link to the article. This quote below says it best, and by a culture that loves gambling nonetheless.


3) Hope:


4) I’ve been doing some work to get my own business ventures started. Therefore, love has been on the back burner for me. Eharmony is not action packed these days, even more like a snooze fest. I didn’t feel like putting in my credit card info to get 7 free days on Since a big part of what I am doing on the side is still small income, very small, or even for free, (but hopefully will be growing amazingly soon), Also my startup biz is only at the top of the iceberg of what I’d like to grow and do. To give you a little background about me, because like I mentioned earlier, we all have a story: I’ve already had major trouble with sleep and anxiety, and even barely working part time for myself, I still do. The thing about spiritual growth, or enlightenment,  is that it isn’t always peachy or comfortable. So sleep and maybe even some other health isssues have been intensified lately. Even being temporary, it will get better. Basically 10 hours of sleep one night, and 3 hours or even 0 hours the next, is not cutting it. I can feel pretty wonderful on the 10 hours of sleep days though. Silly, I know. There are all different hurdles and tests even with this. Ever evolving and changing too.  What I do know for sure is that this is a learning experience. All of it is. Even something as energetically further away from spirit, like gambling, is still making room for a  learning process. An inner process as well.  I may have most of my family that doesn’t get it. Or doesn’t get me. That’s okay. It’s all a part of the growth. Have faith. Have hope! And believe! Again, law of attraction, baby: Ask. Believe. Receive. In that order. I leave you with a great Maya Angelou quote (angel in her name❤️) I just heard on Oprah and Deepak’s 21 day meditation, Hope in Uncertain Times. It relates to this randomness post to a tee or t?!

Hope and faith can be your daily driving force,




“I’ve had all these things before,” she whispers roughly inside her head. 

Now they seem like faint dreams. Hard to remember, with a questionable end. 

Her inner voice guides her. “Go left”, she hears, so she makes a sharp right instead. 

She talks to Angel Intuitives, Psychics, and Reiki Practitioners alike. 

They all tell her the same fight. “Your world will soon be different.”

“Shine your light,” they add. “That’s your destiny. That’s your birth right.”

“Will what’s justly mine ever find me?,” she recites. “I feel such a disconnect and such contrite.”

“This year,” they all simultaneously say, with a reassurance she easily invites.

I’m a Virgo and I’m an empath

I’m super analytical and overthink, yet I am also super sensitive and feel others feelings as if they were my own. Yes, an odd mix indeed.

I love the yin yang symbol because it represents light and dark and how you have to have both to obtain balance. So heart vs mind is always a struggle for me. I’m very intuitive for a Virgo, however I don’t trust my gut feelings and just like to rebel. What ends up happening is that my overthinking tricks my heart into thinking the other person means well or has good intentions even when they don’t. This has caused a lot of pain for me.

End of definition.

“I really like you a lot.”

When a guy says they really like you, they mean it. No having to dissect it. Males are simple, direct, and use as few words as possible to communicate with the opposite sex. Even in this case, when they are telling you they like you, there is no reading between the lines here.

I’m recently dating this guy that I was first talking to through online dating. We talked but never met around this same time last year. I was in a crappy place and told him I didn’t think it would be best to meet then. He said he still had my number and we started texting last month, a year later, and finally met up. After our third date, and they all were spaced out a week apart, he told me he really likes me. So sorry for sounding like a broken record like I do, but guys are simple. When they are there, I mean actually consistently visable, they are next to you…then they like you. When they say they like you, they like you. No hidden meanings, no extremities. Here’s the kicker though: I’m not sure I  like him or feel the same way. I feel really bad about it too. He’s a nice guy,  but I’m not feeling any physical or intellectual connection. Our first date was a cute meet up to get ice cream, we had a full lunch and a walk on the beach for our second date. And one mixed in Netflix and chill date, and a coffee date. The Netflix date barely lead to second base. I dig the slowness too. If you’re read any  piece of my blog, you know that for the past couple of years I have gotten nothing but the opposite. Guys are keen to the physical a little too fast with me. I’m tired of it really. 

But what do I do? It’s now about five weeks in and I don’t know how I feel about this dude. Do I break it off possibly too prematurely, string him along, or see where things go?  Stringing him along is definitely not my style, so it has to be one of the other two. He’s an almost boyfriend here and I’m a little petrified!

I just still haven’t met him yet?, 


What I learned in 2016: a personal yet always random year in review

Can I start off by saying here in South Florida it doesn’t feel like December. Sure, it has still cooled off those 2 or 3 degrees. There are lights up. There are Christmas trees and decorations starting to show up more and more since December 1st hit.  But it just doesn’t feel like December. With that, let me transition so smoothly into my first random thought. All random. All related to something I learned in 2016. It’s been one heck of a year. 


Could there BE a funnier quote  to start with, as Chandler Bing would say? No there couldn’t be. Just like Vegas: what happens in 2016 stays in 2016.  Basically no matter how much it doesn’t feel like December, no matter how many times you say, “gee this is another year that went by too freaking fast”, no matter how much you reflect on the colossal amount of universe and personal shit that went down, the year is finally ending. For those disppointed in the election results, like I was, please remain strong. Pleasant twists and turns may be in store.  Also back to the quote or meme, it also reminds me of the movie Fight Club. “First rule of fight club, never talk about fight club”. Lol. Sayonara 2016, just Sayonara! 

2) I lived with my sister for four months out of 2016, and I have to say I took a lot from the experience. My sister has a husband and a 6 year old child. She loves me and is protective of me. But being 34 years old she just found it difficult to understand my place, and what brought me to the point in my life where I had to stay with her rent free for those months. She took me in and supported me. Being somewhat psychic, I feel she felt like a Harry Potter spell or a quick point of a magic wand would fix everything. I have had over 22 jobs that haven’t lasted since 2014. She just doesn’t get it. I am grateful I got to live with her though because it taught me no one is perfect. No one’s life is perfect. They were imperfectly who they were and I was imperfectly who I was. It’s not Facebook. It’s raw real life. They were a family, so as much as I would have been happy to stay longer, I had to be nomadic once again and move. I’ve moved too much professionally and personally. That’s been my life the past few years. And especially in 2016, I am hoping to finally say I learned from it. She doesn’t have to get me. I don’t have to get her stability. She has a family. I’ve never been married yet, but I learned your marriage and family by marriage has to always come first. When it doesn’t, that’s when you have bigger problems to fry! ❤️


Going with the bullets above, I think this quote is fitting and superb. The original quote is also in the book Furiously Happy by Jenny Lawson, but she only uses, “hell is other people”. I talked to my therapist this year about this quote and we agreed it really is both. It’s your own lens that perceive your opinions about others. So it truly does all start with you. Hell is other people. AND hell is yourself. Food for thought. It brings my life and love for the yin yang full circle. The full circle thing is fresh in my head thanks to the awesome Gilmore Girls revival. Maybe there is such a thing as balance out there? Or maybe like I pointed out above, maybe it’s the perfect imperfections that create an individual’s idea of balance. Life is messy, but that’s what makes it beautiful. That’s what makes it exciting. 

4) I learned this year that even with being so mobile with my career and living arrangements, I can still seek and find answers. I have a great amount of intuition and psychic ability that I don’t trust. I have to learn how to harness it and its good power. It will be the thing that makes me rise. It will be the thing that makes me peak, but continuously, not only once. I decided and was guided to make a bold move and  work for myself. It’s actually one of the main reasons I haven’t posted in a while on here. It’s completely in the beginning stages, and all that doesn’t matter. It will take time. How much time? I’m not sure. But isn’t, time anyways, all relative? It will make things sync in my life.  And what’s better than that really? 


Finally, when someone pushes you down, please remember this quote. You are perfect just the way you are. I’m still learning to forgive myself. I can forgive others a little too easily, but I must forgive myself. I’m highly sensitive, I’m emotional, and in all my imperfections, I am perfect just the way I am! 

Fuck resolutions, this is 2017 we’re talking about,