What I learned in 2016: a personal yet always random year in review

Can I start off by saying here in South Florida it doesn’t feel like December. Sure, it has still cooled off those 2 or 3 degrees. There are lights up. There are Christmas trees and decorations starting to show up more and more since December 1st hit.  But it just doesn’t feel like December. With that, let me transition so smoothly into my first random thought. All random. All related to something I learned in 2016. It’s been one heck of a year. 

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Could there BE a funnier quote  to start with, as Chandler Bing would say? No there couldn’t be. Just like Vegas: what happens in 2016 stays in 2016.  Basically no matter how much it doesn’t feel like December, no matter how many times you say, “gee this is another year that went by too freaking fast”, no matter how much you reflect on the colossal amount of universe and personal shit that went down, the year is finally ending. For those disppointed in the election results, like I was, please remain strong. Pleasant twists and turns may be in store.  Also back to the quote or meme, it also reminds me of the movie Fight Club. “First rule of fight club, never talk about fight club”. Lol. Sayonara 2016, just Sayonara! 

2) I lived with my sister for four months out of 2016, and I have to say I took a lot from the experience. My sister has a husband and a 6 year old child. She loves me and is protective of me. But being 34 years old she just found it difficult to understand my place, and what brought me to the point in my life where I had to stay with her rent free for those months. She took me in and supported me. Being somewhat psychic, I feel she felt like a Harry Potter spell or a quick point of a magic wand would fix everything. I have had over 22 jobs that haven’t lasted since 2014. She just doesn’t get it. I am grateful I got to live with her though because it taught me no one is perfect. No one’s life is perfect. They were imperfectly who they were and I was imperfectly who I was. It’s not Facebook. It’s raw real life. They were a family, so as much as I would have been happy to stay longer, I had to be nomadic once again and move. I’ve moved too much professionally and personally. That’s been my life the past few years. And especially in 2016, I am hoping to finally say I learned from it. She doesn’t have to get me. I don’t have to get her stability. She has a family. I’ve never been married yet, but I learned your marriage and family by marriage has to always come first. When it doesn’t, that’s when you have bigger problems to fry! ❤️

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Going with the bullets above, I think this quote is fitting and superb. The original quote is also in the book Furiously Happy by Jenny Lawson, but she only uses, “hell is other people”. I talked to my therapist this year about this quote and we agreed it really is both. It’s your own lens that perceive your opinions about others. So it truly does all start with you. Hell is other people. AND hell is yourself. Food for thought. It brings my life and love for the yin yang full circle. The full circle thing is fresh in my head thanks to the awesome Gilmore Girls revival. Maybe there is such a thing as balance out there? Or maybe like I pointed out above, maybe it’s the perfect imperfections that create an individual’s idea of balance. Life is messy, but that’s what makes it beautiful. That’s what makes it exciting. 

4) I learned this year that even with being so mobile with my career and living arrangements, I can still seek and find answers. I have a great amount of intuition and psychic ability that I don’t trust. I have to learn how to harness it and its good power. It will be the thing that makes me rise. It will be the thing that makes me peak, but continuously, not only once. I decided and was guided to make a bold move and  work for myself. It’s actually one of the main reasons I haven’t posted in a while on here. It’s completely in the beginning stages, and all that doesn’t matter. It will take time. How much time? I’m not sure. But isn’t, time anyways, all relative? It will make things sync in my life.  And what’s better than that really? 
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Finally, when someone pushes you down, please remember this quote. You are perfect just the way you are. I’m still learning to forgive myself. I can forgive others a little too easily, but I must forgive myself. I’m highly sensitive, I’m emotional, and in all my imperfections, I am perfect just the way I am! 

Fuck resolutions, this is 2017 we’re talking about,

SG

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Flirtationship 

So thanks to the lovely Internet and my unhealthy searching habits, I learned a new word the other night. Flirtationship. I think I may be in two of these as we speak. 😬  Only kidding…maybe. 

Have fun until the true one comes along?–But wait, I’m in my thirties

SG


Maybe age isn’t just a number…

I started a new job three weeks ago. Very “interesting” atmosphere, what seems to be a decent boss, and independent work. The job isn’t all independent work but a big chunk of it is, so that’s all a good fit for me. So over these last couple weeks, I trained with two different guys, one of them being a youngin that I had very little in common with.

My first night was ironically enough Friday the 13th and I met the youngin. He repeatedly said it was bad night to start my training because it was so busy; He trained me nonetheless. I trained with him the next night, but not again for another six days. When he came to that shift, he had massive alcohol on his breath, and I was not impressed.

I was experiencing a major fork in the road because I had another job offer I was interested in, but my boss at this job convinced me to stay. Everything was running slow with the other offer, so I decided to stay. Finally after my training ended, I was scheduled to work alone. The youngin was scheduled too, without me knowing, since my manager just wanted to make sure I would be okay. I sent the youngin home early, but got stuck much later in my shift. I called him for help and he offered to come back in person to help me. There was some flirting on my end, not something I do often, but in this case I did, and we talked about our age difference, about 8 years. So he was legal, just too young. When he came back to help me he asked me out sometime for sushi. I said sure, thinking, well, it would be a date with someone I met offline, and it would be fun.

Almost as fast as the date was thought out loud, things dimmed out. He texted that same night after he left to make sure I was good with the work I got stuck on, and then I didn’t hear from him again. I’ll hardly see him now that I am trained since his two shifts a week are always going to be my two days off.  I was hurt, but I was given some good advice that was relevant and good to the topic. I knew he was too young, and I knew we had very little in common. Sometimes you just have to trust your woman intuition. I know for sure something more complete and action filled will pop up, instead of these situations that end before they even start.  I am at a job with a boss that fought to keep me, so still I’m feeling positive and awesome about that.  Maybe age isn’t just a number, it’s definitely a word though, and a powerful one if you ask me!

The not so young, but young looking,

Single Girl