What I learned in 2016: a personal yet always random year in review

Can I start off by saying here in South Florida it doesn’t feel like December. Sure, it has still cooled off those 2 or 3 degrees. There are lights up. There are Christmas trees and decorations starting to show up more and more since December 1st hit.  But it just doesn’t feel like December. With that, let me transition so smoothly into my first random thought. All random. All related to something I learned in 2016. It’s been one heck of a year. 

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Could there BE a funnier quote  to start with, as Chandler Bing would say? No there couldn’t be. Just like Vegas: what happens in 2016 stays in 2016.  Basically no matter how much it doesn’t feel like December, no matter how many times you say, “gee this is another year that went by too freaking fast”, no matter how much you reflect on the colossal amount of universe and personal shit that went down, the year is finally ending. For those disppointed in the election results, like I was, please remain strong. Pleasant twists and turns may be in store.  Also back to the quote or meme, it also reminds me of the movie Fight Club. “First rule of fight club, never talk about fight club”. Lol. Sayonara 2016, just Sayonara! 

2) I lived with my sister for four months out of 2016, and I have to say I took a lot from the experience. My sister has a husband and a 6 year old child. She loves me and is protective of me. But being 34 years old she just found it difficult to understand my place, and what brought me to the point in my life where I had to stay with her rent free for those months. She took me in and supported me. Being somewhat psychic, I feel she felt like a Harry Potter spell or a quick point of a magic wand would fix everything. I have had over 22 jobs that haven’t lasted since 2014. She just doesn’t get it. I am grateful I got to live with her though because it taught me no one is perfect. No one’s life is perfect. They were imperfectly who they were and I was imperfectly who I was. It’s not Facebook. It’s raw real life. They were a family, so as much as I would have been happy to stay longer, I had to be nomadic once again and move. I’ve moved too much professionally and personally. That’s been my life the past few years. And especially in 2016, I am hoping to finally say I learned from it. She doesn’t have to get me. I don’t have to get her stability. She has a family. I’ve never been married yet, but I learned your marriage and family by marriage has to always come first. When it doesn’t, that’s when you have bigger problems to fry! ❤️

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Going with the bullets above, I think this quote is fitting and superb. The original quote is also in the book Furiously Happy by Jenny Lawson, but she only uses, “hell is other people”. I talked to my therapist this year about this quote and we agreed it really is both. It’s your own lens that perceive your opinions about others. So it truly does all start with you. Hell is other people. AND hell is yourself. Food for thought. It brings my life and love for the yin yang full circle. The full circle thing is fresh in my head thanks to the awesome Gilmore Girls revival. Maybe there is such a thing as balance out there? Or maybe like I pointed out above, maybe it’s the perfect imperfections that create an individual’s idea of balance. Life is messy, but that’s what makes it beautiful. That’s what makes it exciting. 

4) I learned this year that even with being so mobile with my career and living arrangements, I can still seek and find answers. I have a great amount of intuition and psychic ability that I don’t trust. I have to learn how to harness it and its good power. It will be the thing that makes me rise. It will be the thing that makes me peak, but continuously, not only once. I decided and was guided to make a bold move and  work for myself. It’s actually one of the main reasons I haven’t posted in a while on here. It’s completely in the beginning stages, and all that doesn’t matter. It will take time. How much time? I’m not sure. But isn’t, time anyways, all relative? It will make things sync in my life.  And what’s better than that really? 
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Finally, when someone pushes you down, please remember this quote. You are perfect just the way you are. I’m still learning to forgive myself. I can forgive others a little too easily, but I must forgive myself. I’m highly sensitive, I’m emotional, and in all my imperfections, I am perfect just the way I am! 

Fuck resolutions, this is 2017 we’re talking about,

SG

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Flirtationship 

So thanks to the lovely Internet and my unhealthy searching habits, I learned a new word the other night. Flirtationship. I think I may be in two of these as we speak. 😬  Only kidding…maybe. 

Have fun until the true one comes along?–But wait, I’m in my thirties

SG


Much needed randomness: The dreams can come true edition 

It’s been a while since I posted a random blog, so here goes since it’s a little overdue:

1. I’m about to finish listening to Oprah and Deepak’s 21 day meditation experience called Getting Unstuck: Creating  a Limitless Life. I highly recommend signing up for their next  21 day meditation and you can sign up for free right through the Deepak Chopra center meditation website and by clicking here. This meditation is ending now, but through Deepak’s wisdom I learned to embrace my true self, be creative and free,  and no longer accept secondhand or mediocre-at-best experiences. I learned in order to live a limitless life I must be an enthusiastic, loving, and nurturing creator of my life. As a cooperative co-creator everything can evolve beautifully in your life and in the world collectively. 

2. I’m halfway through Jenny Lawson’s book called Furiously Happy. What an incredible read so far. You are certain to conjure up every possible emotion known to man probably by the first 30 pages of this book. She takes a deep and personal look inside mental health, especially anxiety and depression, and I dig a writer who is raw like her. When the writing is refreshing and funny like Lawson’s you instantly feel comfortable, like she really is a best friend or family member. She’s big on taxidermy and even though I didn’t relate to this in the least,  she told the stories with such realness, humor, and wit I was laughing out loud to every single word. Her first book Let’s pretend this never happened also comes highly praised by reviewers and will definitely make it on my infinite to-read list.


3. Now let’s dive deeper into mental health, since it was already brought up above…I began the month of August on the right foot because I finally started on aniexty and sleep medications. One prescription is only for aniexty and the other one is for sleep and depression combined. I started them yesterday and I’m already so hopeful. I’ve had sleeping trouble for years now without much luck finding something that solidly works. I’ve used melatonin on a much more regular basis than I should so I’m almost immune to it now. Last year around this time I was working overnight work and was prescribed Ambien. For those of you that have never heard of Ambien: do not take it! Really! Its classified as a hypnotic sedative so that means you can basically sleep walk, talk, eat, have sex etc and do things you have no idea you’re doing. I was a rebel and stayed up on this drug the only time I took it, but fortunately  I only texted (without really wanting to). If you read up you’ll find a plethora of news stories on it that are a lot worse I may add. Driving and getting in a major accident being on Ambien…yep there’s a story out there like that and that happened. By the way, my texting was comparable to drunk texting.  Never again for that particular med, but I have high hopes for the two new ones. Maybe I can meet a guy and him not instantly  think I’m a crazy lady? Dreams can come true, just have to take the baby steps to get there. 

4. If the after life transition is not like the 1991 Albert Brooks movie Defending your life, I’ll be highly disappointed. This movie came to me being half asleep. Also less than 3 or 4 months ago the themes behind the movie Pleasantville came to me in a dream. I don’t know. Maybe a bit more analysis has to go into both?I took more understanding to the Pleasantville ideas even though I don’t know much about that movie as a whole. I personally thought: I’m ready for some nonconformist color to come back and hit me 💖.  Then the verdict in my mind is to definitely rewatch Defending your life. Here’s the classic past lives pavilion scene from Defending: 

The universe has your back-and knows all your wildest dreams, 

SG